3.15.26:feeling creatively blah today (recently finished some larger projects and have gotten slightly out of habit w/ drawing and writing after expending so much creative energy) and kinda torn on how i want this site/blog/everything to look, i'm again classically wavering between wanting to share more and feeling paranoid about how much i'm putting out there- honestly though, less is more and i'd rather focus on art and thing i'm interested in rather than life stuff. or maybe pw protect the lifeblogging stuff (but in that case why not just go back to dreamwidth or lj or good old pen and paper? lolz) and have another page for like a weekly roundup of cool shit i've seen/listened to/watched etc.. meh
3.10.26: i miss when life was simple and things made sense, but it won't ever be like that again
3.09.26: have been up and down emotionally lately but going to the gym a lot to combat it all. i had dance class tonight and we ran through the entire choreography all the way through for the first time together! i honestly went in feeling like wahhh nobody here likes me but by the end two girls invited me to come practice with them on sunday :.) i also have a new dance friend from a girl i met at the show on saturday. things are kinda weird in my brain and heart right now but there are bright spots too
3.04.26: cleaned the house, hung out w esper...have had a series of awesome days with friends lately :3 so looking forward to this weekend minus ermm... well wwe'll see how it goes. going to a gallery opening tomorroww then more delicoius beautiful alone time
2.23.26: so sore from working, ew.. i've been to My Beautiful Dying Mall twice in the last two days. i went again today bc floating world comics said i could sell my stickers there. i left them 3 different designs and they'll split the earnings 50/50 with me. i also bought a freaky torture hentai doujin and looked at plushies at the anime store next door for a while. i'm brewing up lots of ideas for the site and trying to figure out how to make it look all pretty... i think i may be due for a major layout overhaul once i get the content locked in. i just got out of dance practice and went to dots cafe to work on stuff and just be out of the house. i took a sick day today so i could sleep in and do dishes and laundry and stuff and it felt awesome, hhonestly. slept til almost 2pm. yummmm.com
2.20.26: spent a lot of time drawing and working on stuff yesterday then went out with karla and her coworkers. i was kind of the odd one out aka the only person who didn't work with everyone else. but that basically makes me totally free to be myself because i'll probably never see any of them again. so i had fun. karla and i made some loose plans to work on screenprints together beginning of next month for her fashion label. good things ahead! i'm working a double today, my second to last ever at the bar!! can't wait to be out of there omg. i don't mind having to live frugally for a few months if it means i get some of my life back.
2.19.26: awake at 5am and full of existential dread. my mood has been pretty low the last couple of days. i just want to sleep forever.. i fell asleep around 8pm last night because i went to the gym and went to the grocery store and cooked and then finished reading annihilation and i just didn't feel like getting myself out of that trancelike sleepy state even though it was super early. well, now i'm paying for it, because i've been up since around 3 and now that i'm on my computer i probably won't go back to sleep. i have therapy in like 4 hours- theoretically i could watch a movie? i've been just scrolling on my phone for a bit which makes me feel even more depressed and lonely. ahhhh..
2.16.26: i think i had more fun than anyone else in the world last night. i lounged around at home for quite a while then took myself out for dinner at a sushi place near my house. i ordered so much food, lol. i also had some beer and sake too and topped it off with matcha tiramisu. (￣￢￣)
at night i went to the goth club with jules!! we pregamed at my house with white claw and slushynoobz LOL..in fact i had one of their videos playing on my tv when she came up to my apartment and she literally had the same video playing on her phone to listen to while she drove (╥ ω ╥) we are literally made for eachother. anyways, we danced at the goth club for some hours looking super cute and having so much fun.. the DJ was ok- they only played one of my requests even though i put liek ten in lol. oh and the song they played (sin by NIN) was actually on behalf of jules so technically they didn't play anything i requested. it's so hard being a patrician musiclvoerr...
the club had this coffin you could get inside to take pictures, HAHA. it was surprisingly comfy.
after the club we came back to my house and made a bunch of silly videos together. i forced her to make a fnaf custom...*evil chuckle* anyways i am taking it easy the rest of the day. working on eating, then i need to practice my bellydance choreo before class later. i skipped class last week so i have a bit of catch up to do.
2.14.26: playing roblox and watching slushynoobz at my friend's house on their big tv while they're out of town. the tv keeps glitching out and going static every few minutes. i thought my switch died bc it took forever to turn on but just this morning it came back to life. yay. i spent real $$$ on robux.. oops. but look how cute my avi is!!!
