So I can outright say that there are a few people I have to thank. My Darkness, and selfish nature has subsided a fair bit. I might still primarily play solo games but the main problem and antagonist has been removed from my issues. while I am not the most commonly seen playing with others there is now a few who I do ask if they want to. They know who they are as well. Know that if I am upset I will still speak my mind and say to let me be.. so if I say so, just let me deal with it.. tho now I can say... there is one I can confide in.